I keep breaking
Pain escalating
I can’t be the only one with this emptiness.

The pain combines with rage and you beg the darkness
to swallow you whole

I keep wanting to break things
I live for the sane moment the fracture brings
They remind me that I’m not entirely lost

What does it mean to be found?
Who would know where to look?

Other than feeling terrifyingly alone
No one really knows me

Who exactly would they miss once they realized I was gone?

Anime Monday: Parasyte: The Maxim

Parasyte: The Maxim


The Fine Print:

Written by: Hitoshi Iwaaki
First Published: 1988
Adapted for anime in 2014
Anime Written by: Shoji Yonemura
Directed by: Kenichi Shimizu
Music: Ken Arai

Parasyte: The Maxim starts by introducing you to Shinichi Izumi, a kind, gentle high-schooler who’s life changes dramatically when he is infected by an “alien” parasite. Shinichi experiences some of the changes overnight – namely, that the parasite is cognizant and can operate independent of his body.

Resolved to making it work, the parasite, who named himself Migi, continues to push Shinichi outside of his comfort zone on questions of morality, person-hood and personal accountability as it comes up in the series.

Eventually, it becomes an infection that law enforcement has become aware of and they are actively working on being able to identify and eliminate the so called monsters after a escalating attacks on the town and school.

Shinichi suffers one tragic loss after another and starts living his life with the hope that he can make a positive impact after noticing a change in Tamura Reiko, a parasite who was able to infiltrate multiple human establishments and realizing love with Satomi Murano.

The will to fight was made difficult by the affiliates of Reiko – who had taken over the local government were outed.

Shinichi and Migi’s relationship throughout the series was rocky – and I appreciate that.  I love that it was a great way to examine some of the more existential questions that plague us and make them universal: Why are we here? Are humans “good”? Is all life worthy?

The emotional growth of both Migi and Shinichi throughout the series allows me to forgive the minor issues I had with this show, namely Murano – typical, long hard stares and bleeding heart woman that follows (literally) Shinichi around and hopes that things turn around. While I see how her character was used, it was just that – there was not really much growth for the female characters in the show outside of Tamura Reiko which is just as well because she was such an amazing character.

One thing that really struck me from the first fight scene was how different the combat system looked – since parasites generally aim for the brain and have the ability to change their entire heads into their “fight ready” form. I won’t say much else about this because I’m trying to carefully avoid spoilers but it’s really fun to watch and you do feel the tension well.

This is another must watch anime; I have to admit that I binged watched the first 20 episodes in a few days and it took me weeks to build up the courage to finish it off. The last two episodes ruined me – I was weeping openly and without shame. The ending theme crushed me on the final episode, I absolutely wasn’t ready.

I look forward to re-watching this anime already and to talking with you folks about it.

You can find Parasyte the Maxim on Crunchyroll, Toonami (boo, dubbed) and your usual anime streaming haunts. You can also chat w/ me on twitter: @asiaelle


Anime Monday: Black Butler Season 1


The connection to Sebastian, the “Butler” in Black Butler is immediate; he’s gorgeous and obsesses about etiquette and taking care of the young Master Ciel who comes off as a whiny brat in the first few episodes.

You find out that Ciel signed a contract with Sebastian to be his Demon Butler and help him avenge the person(s) responsible for the death of his parents; the leaders of the Phantomhive family.

It becomes apparent early on that Ciel has a perpetual x on his back; not only because the Phantomhives serve as the Queen’s Watchdog but because of his connection to Sebastian.

Season one serves as a beautiful introduction to the series and ended in a crazy cliff hanger. I loved the building of the relationship between Ciel and Sebastian – they way they encounter other Butler/Master pairings and supernatural beings as well as investigate real life happenings for the Queen. Think of all the shenanigans that could happen to a 13 year old boy with a Demon Butler that investigates the happenings of the underworld for the Queen? Also, do I even need to mention that the Queen herself became a major plot point toward the end of the season? I feel like you already knew that.

The supporting cast is also pretty impressive; Sebastian has a staff of very capable defenders as well as domestic support. It was very cool to see development for the minor characters toward the middle of the season.

Thankfully Black Butler has 3 completed Seasons so there’s no need to be afraid to binge watch Season 1 to see how you like it. Seasons are relatively long; Season 1 has 25 episodes.

Black Butler Stats:
Written and Created by Yana Toboso
First Published in 2006
Adapted for Anime in 2008
Anime Written by Hiroyuki Yoshino
Directed by Noriyuki Abe
Music By Yasunori Mitsuda

As of fall 2014, there is scheduled to be a remake of the Black Butler Series. Why? Because they’ll do whatever they want, that’s why.

Black Butler can be found on Crunchyroll, Netflix, Hulu and Funimation for streaming.




It’s that time of year again! If you’re unfamiliar NaNoWriMo stands for National Novel Writing Month which is November. The aim is to finish a novel in 30 days.

It’s free to join / participate:

In 2014:

  • 325,142 participants, including 81,311 students and educators in the Young Writers Program, started the month as auto mechanics, out-of-work actors, and middle school English teachers. They walked away novelists.
  • 849 libraries, bookstores, and community centers opened their doors to novelists through the Come Write In program.
  • 55,774 Campers tackled a writing project—novel or not—at Camp NaNoWriMo.

Over 250 NaNoWriMo novels have been traditionally published.
They include Sara Gruen’s Water for Elephants, Erin Morgenstern’s The Night Circus, Hugh Howey’s Wool, Rainbow Rowell’s Fangirl, Jason Hough’s The Darwin Elevator, and Marissa Meyer’s Cinder.See a full list of our published authors.


Completion has eluded me in previous years; I usually get to overwhelmed by week three and start to get frazzled. This year, I really hope to get as close to finish as possible – the discipline of continuous writing is almost as important to me as crafting a decent story because this is where I struggle.

Hopefully, I have more than enough material to complete a first draft by the end of the month.

Good luck to all the fellow participants!

Destiny: General Farming Tips

What is farming?

In Destiny, farming refers to spending time in PvE (mostly) game modes with the intention of mass collecting materials which are used to upgrade either your guns or your gear. You can also farm Glimmer which is the main currency system in Destiny, Legendary Marks and just about any consumable.

In this post, I’ll be mostly talking about how to farm Upgrade Materials.

General Farming Tips:

  1. Use a Ghost Shell that highlights the upgrade material type you’re looking for. You should have a Ghost Shell for every type: Spinmetal. Helium Filaments, Hadium Flakes, Spirit Bloom and Relic Iron. It does not matter if your Ghosts aren’t all high level, this is about function and not your over all light level.
    1. Ghost Shell works by showing you an icon over raw upgrade materials on the map – you must be within proximity.
  2. Use a gun with Enhanced motion tracker. The gun I use is the Cordova-HC3 Handcannon, it’s rare and a 285 light level. Enhanced motion tracker will show you the location of raw upgrade materials on the map and chests – most of these perks aren’t standard but can be activated w/ kills or headshots.
    1. Enhanced Motion Tracker is helpful for finding chest locations that are in crevices or in weird places in general.
  3. Know your route. When in an area of a map, be sure to move around. Going in and out of the same 2 chest rooms over and over won’t net you as much results as you making a full loop around the map. If you’re not seeing chest / raw material respawns, it maybe time to leave the area (until you see the name on the map change) and then come back in a few minutes.
  4. The more people in your area; the faster resources will deplete / the higher the chance for someone to find a chest or raw upgrade material and pick it up before you which will cause it to be off map for you if you’re not in very close proximity. If it’s a crowded area, maybe move on to another map section.
  5. For best results use #1 and #2 to maximize the amount of upgrade materials you can get in the time you’ve allotted to farm.
  6. Depending on where you farm, be sure to use the consumable related to the enemy you’re killing so you can also farm glimmer. The aim is get as much out of your time as possible.

Here’s the Hand Cannon I referenced above; the perk I have is: Relentless tracker – I’ve seen a similar perk with the name Enhanced Motion Tracker as well.

Hand Cannon

Hope these tips help you cut your farming time down because let’s be real…who’s spending their precious Legendary Marks on upgrade materials?

Destiny: How to set up “B” on Twilight Gap

Whenever you’re playing an objective game, it’s critical for your team mates to have an idea of what they’re going to be doing as well as what their team mates will be trying to achieve. I’ve been getting lots of questions on twitter regarding the different roles while playing FPS games. I self identify as “aggressive support” which means that I’m generally playing the objective (or making sure I’m alive to revive my team mates (in PVE or Skirmish, Trials and Elimination) but I am also a pretty reliable slayer if need be.

Getting a high number of kills isn’t as important to me as making sure the objective is complete; in the new game types of Zone Control and Rift, playing the objective actually makes a difference if you win or lose and that is what makes it more competitive to me.

Setting ensures that you’re either holding down the main lines of sight for your objective or the path that your objective will lead to in the case of Rift; it can be difficult to hold your position but where you go can influence your team’s spawn points as well as the opposing team’s spawn points so being consistent is key.

In this video that I clipped from Twitch; I show full game play of how my friends and I “set” up Twilight Gap; as you can only see my perspective, you’ll see how I set up and maintain the set up of the Control point “B”.

Generally; there are two team mates patrolling “A”, one team mate patrolling my top “B” platform and mid map (where the special ammo spawns), one team mate at the “B” control point with the remaining team mates pushing them back into their spawn; watching all avenues for flank opportunities.

IF you originally spawn at Control Point C, I would advise you to push A and attempt to flip spawns as soon as possible. The distance between A-B is way more manageable to hold down, unless you’re a greedy lot and want all three control points in which case; do you boo.

Please keep in mind when playing support to not get antsy because you see that you’re not the highest score on the board; try to keep your K/d up and put yourself in a position where you can at least hold down one control point – pull back if you find yourself rushing and feeding the opposing team.

Yes, this is video from House of Wolves IB and not TK.