Unpolished rumination on Saturnians, particularly Capricorn placements. I’m not an astrologer – I just hold up the 2 things that I know up to the light and find myself where personal development intersects.

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Thinking about what it means to have Saturn placements. Truly. And I’m not a chart reader or super experienced in any of this, so don’t laugh if this is very 101.

Since Saturn restricts and limits; I do believe that the remedy is exploring abundance, love, and community. It isn’t about *money* so much as it is about stability and provision. Why aren’t you a radical lover (of yourself, your community, your life, your choices, your family, etc)?

Your Saturnian life is the fight to prove to the “discipline” – that you can work within those bounds – which is the story we get told, but what if we shatter the bounds? What if we accept that love, community, discipline, and abundance are all exactly the same at the root.

What is community but love and discipline working toward abundance; together? Discipline is your access point, but the desire is community and abundance. You see where I’m going with this?

Generally, we tend to do the opposite; we think if we have love, then maybe we can’t have community or if we have community or love, then we can’t have discipline. We tend to think we will be rewarded for denial or operating from a deficit and then get upset when it doesn’t pan out.

This echoes what I said a while ago about divine providence and provenance working hand in hand. The comfort I feel standing ten toes down about what I want hits EVERY SINGLE TIME. I want all of it. I’ll work toward it. I won’t punish myself in advance, thinking that me getting what I want is the reward for punishment but a celebration of my output. It’s opened up so much for me (and my fellow capricorn placement friends). I had to be honest with myself – a lot of times, my lack, my restriction – was self-imposed. No one stopped me. I stopped myself.

It’s a small shift in some ways, a big shift in others, but it’s really unraveled the “Big Bad Boogey” persona of the Saturnian mind set for me.