I remember smells and tastes more than I remember faces and names. I could tell you the kind of day it was when I had my first kiss but not what I was wearing, I could recall the first song I ever sang for an audience when I was 6 but not the last time…
Tag: Observations
Grasping at straws
Ever have a dream that you barely remember when you wake up but the little knowledge you do have of it claws at your psyche? I think life is a little bit like that.
On leaving the past alone
Today, as comfortable as I’m learning to be in my own skin, I reached out to someone I previously said I would no longer speak to. There wasn’t any more of a reason than usual. I care. This is my greatest strength and my most easily exploited weakness. I have a tough time thinking that…
On being better to myself
One of the world’s unspoken but known rules is that no one can be as good to you as you are to yourself. I never quite understood that when I was younger, hell as lately as last year and I was eternally wrapped up in always doing good for others and hoping that some how…
On Writing
I’ve often wondered why I write or continue to attempt to write a blog; I know that I’ve always felt alone and I’ve always had this impossible feeling that there was someone else who, for what its worth would understand. Not everything but maybe one thing or relate to it in a way that I…
The Change
Everything came out at once and things can never go back to being the same, at least not for a while. Slowly you’ve changed but I’ve remained the same. Kindling to your fire and wool to your lamb, I’ve been everything you wanted me to be. Bared skin turned to burned reminders of being careless…
In a dream my love.
Its hard sometimes to get out of the depressive rut and that is even harder to do when you have so much to say but can’t find the right words. I’ve been struggling again with being able to express myself or even process my thoughts in a concise manner…that makes it hard to vent. I…
A Spike Lee Joint
I’ve always been interested in how the American government treats it’s people and the seeming inability for us to get out of the detrimental cycles that we go over seas to free other people from. I’m currently watching; If God willing and Da creek don’t rise; a follow up documentary style film by Spike Lee….
Wanderlust
It was swift and came without warning. It was cold and dark and every shade of grey simultaneously. Realization. I could not unlearn these things about you if I wanted to, my love, my everything. I stand when it is easier to kneel, I refuse to submit to this unknown thing that tries to distance…
Lux 