Some who wander are lost…

  All that is gold does not glitter, Not all those who wander are lost; The old that is strong does not wither, Deep roots are not reached by the frost.   But some who wander are lost..and I count myself among them for now. It’s been a tough month; Mother’s Day brought up a…

Your turn to wash the dishes

While I love cooking, I hate washing dishes. Yes, hate. The “deal” in my household is whoever cooks, is absolved from washing dishes. This still doesn’t work because I hate washing dishes, even on the days when I didn’t cook. I can’t identify what it is about the task itself that I hate; but I…

Writing through the Blues

So if you’re on twitter you know the phrase “tweet through it”; that kind of sums up what I’m trying to do with this blog. I have this problem with consistency when the negative feelings about myself and my writing creep in. 2013 was such a tough year for my family and I and I…

Missing Places

Wishing it was thanksgiving in Florida again. I was enjoying a cappuccino on the porch, watching kids play in the street on a beautiful, warm day.

Mornings

My own tears woke me up this morning. Violent and unsettling. I was dreaming of her again and I let myself find comfort in a lie I can only tell when I’m asleep; that she’s available to me in a way that I could recognize. It usually starts with me trying to call on memories…

Love, Loss and Adulthood

I wonder how long it will take for me to forget her?I remember the way her arms would wrap around me. As I grew taller our hugs changed, she would have to use my height to steady herbut she always enveloped me  Now I’ve started to forget and remember.She smelled like home and took some of my…

A Death in the Family

While the title sounds like a poorly casted 80s movie, it’s really my life. My grandmother passed, on Monday. I never took notice of how different it is for Caribbean people, culturally. We kept a Wake at my uncles’ house, that no one had to announce. After I heard, I started to prepare for the…

Struggling with Mortality

I start my new years resolution on my birthday, December 29th of every year. Usually, I take that day to reflect on my life and how far I’ve come in 365 days and start to set goals for the upcoming year. A few days before Christmas I got some disheartening news about my Grandmother who…

Remembering my Great Grandmother, Susan

Her name means joy, I try to keep that in mind every year as I remember her on the day that she passed. The day rushes back to me vividly and suddenly I am 12 and I’m rushing home from school because my Grandmother called the Principal and my teachers and told them I needed…

Family Visits and Building Memories

I’ve been fortunate this year to reconnect with a lot of my family; my father’s side especially. Discovering that I had brothers and a sister were a shock but it has also been a pleasant transition. What’s really surprised me is that I’ve also been reconnecting with family members that I’ve known for a while…