I keep breaking Pain escalating I can’t be the only one with this emptiness. The pain combines with rage and you beg the darkness to swallow you whole I keep wanting to break things I live for the sane moment the fracture brings They remind me that I’m not entirely lost What does it mean…
Tag: depression
The Dubious Task of Depression
Depression is a real thing, and as we continue to lose people to the emptiness they can’t fill, I hope we can be compassionate. How can someone begin to explain? It’s a lot easier to self medicate or over medicate with illegal or legal drugs to try to dull the pain. The relief that you…
I don’t like change…
I’ve been a creature of habit for the past 8 years; deviation from the ritualistic nature of waking up and getting ready for work was the closest I came to utter worship. I went to work when I was happy, sad, sick, well, depressed, anxious, terrified and everything in between. Now, I don’t have that…
Does that make me crazy by Bassey Ikpi
I first heard Bassey Ikpi’s voice during one of the Def Jam Poetry shows…it was clear as a bell and I felt an instant connection to her. At the time, she was known as a writer / poet but not much more. Since then, she’s become an advocate for mental health and started to speak…
Forest Gump
Reading has always been like music to me. I could close my eyes and see the words hovering above me in the air…taking shape into the story,character’s laughter weaving spells around me, landscapes enveloping me…so it’s no surprise that I would use it the same way most people use music; to help process. There are…
Going Under
What do you do when the darkness starts to take you? When the familiar temptation worms its way inside and makes itself at home with your worst fears…. It would be so easy to give in. Isn’t resigning yourself to the darkness now…brave if you know that it’s coming hunting you? Is…
Fighters – Lupe Fiasco
Planning. Writing. Fighting. Hoping. This is my Saturday night. Title Reference: Fighters by Lupe Fiasco Ft. Matthew Santos http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jrOoX6xGntc
Writing through the Blues
So if you’re on twitter you know the phrase “tweet through it”; that kind of sums up what I’m trying to do with this blog. I have this problem with consistency when the negative feelings about myself and my writing creep in. 2013 was such a tough year for my family and I and I…
I Remember 9/11
Everyone I know that was in New York at the time of 9/11 remembers exactly what they were doing the second they heard. I was getting ready for school, fresh out of the shower I turned on New York 1 to check the weather as I usually did in the morning. Waiting for the weather…
On leaving the past alone
Today, as comfortable as I’m learning to be in my own skin, I reached out to someone I previously said I would no longer speak to. There wasn’t any more of a reason than usual. I care. This is my greatest strength and my most easily exploited weakness. I have a tough time thinking that…
Lux 